My prayer 9/19/06
Lord of heaven and earth, I am nothing and not worthy to wear Your Name. I am so utterly sinful and useless. God I know that it is only by Your grace that I am not killed simply because of my sin. Please forgive me for my iniquity and depravity. I know this, in You is no sin. I know that You want me to be the same. I am nowhere near where You want me to be. Please God help me, deliver me from this weight of my sin. I try so hard but I know You are my victory and only you can deliver me from these chains. Help me Lord. I don’t want to keep going on like this I feel as though I am on a roller coaster of spiritual ups and downs without end. God help me; Jesus I need You. Forgive me Father, for I do what I would not. Jesus I’m sorry take me Lord take all of me Savior. God help me free me from myself, my nature, my sin.
Ken I know that you love Me. I know you are weak. I have so much for you if you will only let Me take these things from you. I took your sin on Myself and you are free from your sin. I have made you clean and righteous, if only you will realize this. Read My Word, get to know Me. I ask nothing of you that I wont give you, and have given you. You’re not perfect, I AM. Look at Me learn about Me, I am meek and don’t put Myself above you. I have an abundant life for you, with the freedom that you so desire. I love you Ken. Let Me come beside you, I’ve been here all along. If you slow down and listen you will hear My voice, and you will know it is Me. I accept your apology Ken, I’ve forgiven you already. I have better things for you than this. Let Me show you.
Lord I have such a hard time forgiving myself. I live in condemnation for days after I fail.
Ken, it’s gone, in the sea of forgetfulness.
But God I remember.
If I declare it is gone. It is gone!
Lord help me heal me I need You now more than I ever have.
I am here just as I’ve always been, I’ll never leave you or desert you.
God, I know Your Word says this but I still have a hard time forgiving myself.
You need to realize what I have made you. I have called you righteous; you are righteous. A say you are forgiven, you are forgiven. If you can’t see it yourself, let Me show it to you. Let Me help you forgive yourself by putting my forgiveness in your heart. Ken, I love you; I always have and will. I want you to experience Me.
Lord I’m not worthy to even be in Your presence.
Where will you go to get away from Me? I AM everywhere! Just let Me remove the barriers that keep you from seeing who and what I have made you. It is not what you will someday be it is who you are. If you will only understand that is who you are. You are not a depraved sinner; you are my righteous child. Walk as I have made you.

"It is finished"
No words ever spoken have said more or carried more weight than these, last words of Jesus Christ. He hung on a cross in a horrible, violent, bloody scene. It was not a pretty picture. What He did there has changed the world to this day. We live under grace, God's Riches at Christ's Expense. We don't need to work our way to heaven, we can't. Our sin is finished, dead, paralyzed. Our struggles may still be here but we have a present help in time of need. When Jesus died the power of sin over those who have accepted Christ died with Him. We can live a life that pleases God, but only by the power of His Son. The price has been payed, all it takes is faith that He did it for you. It is finished.

Nickel Creek The Hand Song Lyrics
The boy only wanted to give mother something
And all of her roses had bloomed
Looking at him as he came rushing in with them
Knowing her roses were doomed
All she could see were some thorns buried deep
And tears that he cried as she tended his wounds

And she knew it was love
It was one she could understand
He was showing his love
And that's how he hurt his hands

He still remembers that night as a child
On his mother's knee
She held him close as she opened her Bible
And quietly started to read
Then seeing a picture of Jesus he cried out
"Mama, he's got some scars like me!"

And he knew it was love
It was one he could understand
He was showing his love
And that's how he hurt his hands

Now the boy's grown and moved out on his own
When Uncle Sam comes along
A foreign affair, but our young men were there
And luck had his number drawn
It wasn't that long till our hero was gone
He gave to a friend what he learned from the cross

But they knew it was love
It was one they could understand
He was showing his love
And that's how he hurt his hands
It was one they could understand
He was showing his love
And that's how he hurt his hands

Jhn 4:14 But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life.
God's love and grace never ceases to amaze me as I read through the Word and discover the heights and depths thereof. God's love is like a river flowing through our lives, making us to be more like him and less like that sinful person crucified in Christ. This analogy of the well of water shows no end the his love and grace, they are like the rest of God, eternal. His bones were not broken, for in them the blood is continually produced to cleanse the sinner's spot. He will give us the ability to live in the present, without concentrating on the past, and a future of a life with him, eternally.

Ga 5:16 This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfil the lust of the flesh.
Ga 5:17 For the flesh lusteth against the Spirit, and the Spirit against the flesh: and these are contrary the one to the other: so that ye cannot do the things that ye would.
2co 3:18 But we all, with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit of the Lord.
I'm gonna go out on a limb and say this is the most important aspect of our Christian walk. If we walk in the Spirit He will direct us where we should, and shouldn't go. If we obey His prodding and that sweet, still, small voice God will lead His way. As we follow Him it will be easier to crucify our old man, to not be selfish, cranky, or easily offended. God will make us to be more like Him as we follow the Spirit's leading. Allowing God's Spirit to govern our actions will lead us from glory to glory.

1Jo 4:18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.


1Jo 4:19 We love him, because he first loved us.

1Jo 4:1 Beloved, believe not every spirit, but try the spirits whether they are of God: because many false prophets are gone out into the world.

Ever been afraid? I have. From time to time I have feared that I am not doing enough for God, or that I am not good enough. Sometimes my fear is almost overwhelming and I fear He doesn't love me anymore. In this scripture John is telling us that fear is not of God. If God is love, and perfect love casts out fear, than God's love is fear-free. He will never bring anything out of a spirit of fear. Only out of love does He call us. His love is perfected in this, He loved us when we hated Him. If He loved us then, He loves us now. He will lead us as a shepherd, not drive us from behind. He wants us to trust in Him, and let Him relieve us of our fears. He is after all our Prince of Peace.

Jhn 13:34 A new commandment I give unto you, That ye love one another; as I have loved you, that ye also love one another.


Jhn 13:35 By this shall all [men] know that ye are my disciples, if ye have love one to another.

Col 2:16 Let no man therefore judge you in meat, or in drink, or in respect of an holyday, or of the new moon, or of the sabbath [days]:

Often on my spiritual journey I have wondered if those around me, who don't know me, can tell if I'm a Christian. Have you ever wondered this? Here Jesus is telling us exactly how our faith is to be demonstrated. It is by loving each other, not by any awesome works that we can do. If we love each other, we won't get caught up on unimportant details. When someone's heart is focused on God He works out the specifics. We are not our fellow followers' judge. We must be their servant. There is enough fighting already. If we only focus on our differences how are we different from the world? If all they see is our disagreements, how are we loving one another as Christ loved us?